Monday, July 8, 2013

Watertown: January 23, 1959

Tonight we went to the dance – and had quite a bit of fun – although we really didn't know quite what to say to each other. Afterwards, he drove straight home, got out and opened the door for me, and walked me to the door. I didn't know what he was pulling off – so I didn't say anything. He tried to kiss me goodnight, but I wouldn't let him. Then he told me to call him the next day. I said “no” and started walking in the house. Then he started laughing and picked me up and carried me back to the car. It was all a big joke, but I wasn't too amused at the time. Well, then we went out and parked, as usual. And of course, he had to have his hands where they shouldn't be – and how. He’s getting just a little too familiar, I think. But still, it was terribly romantical. Especially when he whispered, “Julie – Julie, I love you” or “Oh, gosh.” He sounds so pained when he says that. Gad, it just gets me. Then we started telling jokes and got ourselves all out of the mood. A while later, we were talking about it, and he kept insisting I was hot. It’s so hard to believe and actually say it. We’re pretty much in love again – it sure came back fast. But I don’t love him half as much as I used to. I wish I did – this isn't as thrilling.

Watertown: January 22, 1959

Today Daniel kept asking me why I was mad, and he finally guessed that he must’ve missed our anniversary – he still doesn't know when it is. Oh, I was so mad at him. Tonight was the last night of Kapers. We’re so glad it’s over – and so tired. Daniel was with me quite a bit, but we really didn't accomplish much. We also rode around after school, but I couldn't help being kinda snotty then, and we didn't accomplish anything either. There was a dance tonight – and I went with the girls, as usual. That’s fun, though. Daniel danced with a few girls at first, but then he was with me the rest of the night. We had a lot of fun dancing – but it was kind of impersonal. Later, he started warming up a little, and he kissed me once very lightly when we were dancing, but I really had to throw myself at him. I don’t like to do that, but I know it’s the only way to get him back now. And I think I want him back – I guess I do love him pretty much.

Watertown: January 21, 1959

Oh, I’m so mad, I could just spit! Today was Daniel’s and my second anniversary, and he didn't even remember or say anything about it. And I’ll be darned if I’ll bring it up again like I did the last time. If he doesn't care even that much about it, I’m not going to keep reminding him. He didn't pay hardly any attention to me tonight, either. We had the first night of Kapers tonight and we were together quite a bit, considering. But he had the car and didn't even ask if I wanted a ride or how I was going home. So I went home with my folks. Disgusting. At first when I got home I cried a little because he didn't even remember, but now I can’t think of anything to cry for. I don’t like him at all – and I’m ready to quit anytime. And I’m not even sad at all…

Watertown: January 20, 1959

I don’t know what happened, but today Daniel and I didn't pay any attention to each other at all – didn't even hardly speak. Tonight we had dress rehearsal for Kapers. For our Junior Class act, we had a nightclub scene and we all had to dance. Daniel and I danced then, but that’s about all I saw him all night. Then at the end, we snuck out of the finale and over into Junior High. It was all dark over there and we stood and kissed about four times, but didn't really say anything. He didn't have the car, so he told me just to go home with the girls – so I did. I don’t know what’s happening. We act like we don’t even know each other any more. And the funny part is I don’t feel one way or the other about it. But I don’t think I want to break up.

Watertown: January 19, 1959

No school today. Went uptown with Sharee, Diane, and Barb. Everybody is wearing long gloves for the Tuck formal. Sexy. Daniel called me. He played poker all last night with the fellas. Boy, he sure was surly. Tonight we went up to Sharee’s and had a practice for our Jr. Class Kapers act. Everybody was there. Afterwards, Daniel and I rode around with Jay. It sure was fun to talk to him again. Wow – he’s neat. Daniel and I didn't get a chance to be alone or talk at all. He didn't even kiss me goodnight. Sure miss it. I want to apologize to him too, for acting like such a dip last night.

Watertown: January 18, 1959

Today Daniel came up and he kept flirting around with Sue – as usual. I got mad and left, but pretty soon he came back, we made up, and went out and parked (natch). It seems like that’s all we ever want to do. He was really moody all day, and I just don’t know how to act when he’s like that. So – like tonight, I made him mad. Sharee,  Irma, Mary Tokin and I found the fellas and had a party at Tokins’. There was Daniel, John Diblon, Bob Hegstrom, and Pete Foley. Sharee and Bob, Daniel and I sat in the living room and made out, only I just wasn't in a serious mood, and would hardly let Daniel do anything, and just sat and laughed. He got terribly mad, but I couldn't help it. Then I was flirting with the other guys something terrible – in fact, we were almost making out. Bob – wooo!! That didn't help Daniel any, either. Then we left and drove around a while. They were just picking on Sharee something terrible, but they seemed to like me pretty well. Oh, and John kept saying he was going to take me home last, because we live so close together. Ha. I was the last girl they took home, and then it was only because I asked them to. For finishing touches, I said, “Goodnight Bob, dear, and Peter, dear, and John, dear.” Then at the door, after Daniel kissed me goodnight, I said, “Goodnight Daniel, dear.” Oh – he just had a fit. Man, did I have a ball!!!

Watertown: January 17, 1959

Was with Daniel a little today, but couldn't go out tonight (home too late last night.) We talked on the phone a lot, to but there was never anything to say. Today I drove the car out to the little road where we parked last night – and got stuck. I had to ask an old man who had just had a heart attack to help me get out. It was awful. One wheel would get unstuck – the other then would get stuck. It took at least an hour to get out. Oh – I was so mad at myself for being so stupid. And I hope to God nothing happened to that man – it hurt him pretty bad. Man, I was scared. Oh, what a day.

Monday, July 1, 2013

Watertown: January 16, 1959 (Friday)

Oh, tonight was the most wonderful night in ages!! All the girls, it seemed like, were having trouble getting their guys to ask them to the dance – especially me! When Daniel finally did bring it up, he said he didn't have enough money to take me. Big laugh – it’s only a dime extra. Well, anyway, I made plans to go stay with the girls. Then he finally started leading up to asking me, I told him no, I was going with the girls, and left. So anyway, there were about twelve of us in the car. It was a scream! At the dance, the first one I danced with was Paul Drenkow. That made Daniel mad, so he started dancing with every girl in sight. So did I – with every boy I could manage to get to ask me to dance! I only danced with Daniel six times. We called it our stag night. I danced with just billions of boys and had a ball! Then he would ask me if I was mad, and when I wasn't, he was sorta disappointed. He’s always just trying to make me jealous. And he said the reason he wasn't dancing with me much was because he didn't want to ask me home, because he knew then he would break his promise (about Feb. 7). But at the end he came and asked me if I wanted a ride home. I said, No, I was going with the girls. So we all piled in and went out to the Pine Tree. Everybody was out there – including HIM, so I talked to him quite a while. Then he asked me again to go home with him, so this time I did. We parked out in front of our house, and I was flirting with him like mad, trying to get him to kiss me and break his promise. He started to so many times, but never did. Then finally he drove out onto this neat little back road, stopped, and really broke his promise! Man – like WOW! Oh, it was so romantical! Then we sat and did some serious necking – boy, I was really keyed up. I let him get by with a little, because I didn't want to wreck it. He kept whispering in my ear, “Julie, I love you” or “Oh, Julie” ‘til I nearly went wild – with joy. And he kept telling me I was so sweet and such a doll, and all that. Quite a night for speeches. And I told him the same stuff, so we decided we belong to a “Mutual Admiration Society.” Oh, it was so wonderful and romantic, and I’m so crazy in love with him. Then he also told me that he had more fun tonight then he ever had with Barbara. Sweet and touching. I was glad though. Also he told me of the two promises he broke – the Feb. 7th one and the one he made to himself that he would never tell a girl he loved her until he was twenty-one. So I know he’s pretty sincere about it. Oh, he’s just fabulous, and I’m the most lucky girl in the world!!!!!

Watertown: January 15, 1959

Absolutely lousy day. I’ll save this space for something more interesting.

Watertown: January 14, 1959

Didn't do much today – went to school. I’m getting such lousy grades lately. Of course, I never put myself out studying. Everybody is getting so excited about the Tuck Formal. We’re doubling with Jim Baker and Sharee Glaze, I think. It should be an absolute ball. I talked to Daniel for a long time after school – it seems like I’m always with him and we’re always talking. It seems funny that we never get tired of each other.

Yesterday I was reading this little book about sex – and really found out some things I didn't know – I was really embarrassed reading it! Gad! And then Sunday night, Daniel was telling me some more stuff I didn't know. I've been leading a very sheltered life! He said that Saturday night he was starting to get hot. Gad, I about died. And then he said I was, too, and I was sorta embarrassed but I know I was. It’s a good thing we quit when we did, though. Sunday Daniel was also telling me ways to get a boy hot – like running your fingers through their hair, rubbing the back of his neck or his leg. I do those all the time – and I never realized at all what I was doing. I’ll have to be more careful.

Watertown: January 13, 1959

Didn't do much today – went to school. I’m getting such lousy grades lately. Of course, I never put myself out studying. Everybody is getting so excited about the Tuck Formal. We’re doubling with Jim Baker and Sharee Glaze, I think. It should be an absolute ball. I talked to Daniel for a long time after school – it seems like I’m always with him and we’re always talking. It seems funny that we never get tired of each other.

Yesterday I was reading this little book about sex – and really found out some things I didn't know – I was really embarrassed reading it! Gad! And then Sunday night, Daniel was telling me some more stuff I didn't know. I've been leading a very sheltered life! He said that Saturday night he was starting to get hot. Gad, I about died. And then he said I was, too, and I was sorta embarrassed but I know I was. It’s a good thing we quit when we did, though. Sunday Daniel was also telling me ways to get a boy hot – like running your fingers through their hair, rubbing the back of his neck or his leg. I do those all the time – and I never realized at all what I was doing. I’ll have to be more careful.

Watertown: January 12, 1959

Tonight I needed some glue and papers for current events, so Daniel told me to come over and get them. So I did. When I got in the house, he started madly pulling down shades and turning out lights. It was really funny and I just laughed at him, but still it was hard to hold him off. Finally, he carried me into the bedroom and we really messed up that bed! I was so scared his mother would come home like before. We were just goofing around, but having the lights off and in the bedroom would have been rather hard to explain! Then it turned out he didn't have any papers, and had mixes some flour and water for glue. Boy, I really got took. Then he acted real offended when I held him off, and said he was never going to kiss me again till the Tuck Formal (Feb. 7). Then he would forget and kiss me, and kept coming back for “the last kiss.” Sure hope he doesn't stick to it – I couldn't stand it.